The first line showed up dark pink as it always did, and then, suddenly, a faint second pink line emerged. She is planning to keep the baby because she doesnt think she could handle the depression that would follow an abortion. This is just not exactly what I wanted for her and Im scared to lose my best friend in a sense because Im not quite ready to grow up that fast. My sister just found out she is pregnant and I congratulated her on the phone. Hes worried our quality of life will suffer for the whole family. I have been sleeping with a guy unprotected for a year now last month I got pregnant and I had a miscarriage I never told him because we are not together. I dont want to live in regret of having an abortion. I am heartbroken. Sometimes four days late, sometimes ten days you get the idea. Financially we are already tight. Its so irresponsible of me i know, but i dont want him to feel like Im trying to use this new baby as a way to rekindle our relationship that in reality was not that good. Anti-abortion and abortion-rights activists argue their viewpoints on the steps of the State House in Trenton, N.J., April 30, 1973. I just knew it was my girl I prayed for. The heavy burden and guilt that I felt each day makes me question myself why I did came to that point, if I was careful enough to not make mistake. Maybe you're frightened. Would the Republican's bill force that teenager to. I feel I will never stop crying and never stop being broken hearted at my loss. Its not being selfish if you think about it deeper. I had to. I dont want to go through an abortion again. And I like to think that only because they arent physically here doesnt mean Im not a mom. I open it and see two pictures of you. Take care. He puts his hand on my thigh and asks, What do you want to do? I ask him, What do you want to do? He replies, I want to do whatever you decide. By Ronald Doe. Top Poems My baby fever was at an all time high I was even looking at baby clothes. My supports at the time were my boyfriend, a few very close friends my age, and my 4 younger siblings (3 were under 6 years old at this time). And I too pray from the core of my heart that you all get back your unborn ones. Did you end up keeping your baby ? I too am going through my second one and I feel absolutely horrible, so I completely understand what you are feeling. I failed my baby boy and Im still trying to figure out how to be at peace with myself and sometimes Im so scared I never will be. I found out I was pregnant exactly two years ago this weekend. My eyes fixate on her belly, and I sob. Im 8-9 weeks pregnant, i have not told him since we are not together although we still engage in sex. What makes us experts in Online Poetry Publishing? I recently experienced my first pregnancy, at 19 years of age and with four years of nursing school ahead of me. Dont worry though youre not pregnant!. Id give anything to see my baby smile. The last paragraph brought tears to my eyes. Love to you and your baby girl. I have seen many of my patients go through something similar and it is never easy. And soon I'll get my own fingers and toes. I feel like Im losing either way; if I get an abortion, Ill most likely regret it, and if I dont, Ill struggle as a single mother. I decide abortion at week 6. I dont want to let you go. She wrote this piece to destigmatize abortion and to offer a story of strength and hope to women and men alike. Fathers should never be bored of their children. Dear Mom: Letters from an Aborted Baby Week 1 Dear Mom, I know you don't know I am here yet, but I am really excited to spend the next forty weeks with you and never be apart. I have a toddler and Im pregnant again. "Please pray for this woman to continue to stand firm in her choice to give life to her unborn baby," the pro-life organization wrote. I'm sorry Mamma, you couldn't eat and was having nausea. I already have a 1 yr old but im 5 months. I didn't know you, but I loved you. It is a deep sorrow. 'Dear Mommy' So begins the correspondence from an unborn baby to her mother. Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. Keeps chugging along with home remodel and building his shop, and when I remind because Im STRUGGLING with being left with this choice. I'll make you breakfast on Mother's Day God bless . I had a late term surgical abortion, against my will. When he parks in front of my school, in front of parents carrying in their babies and small children, I call Planned Parenthood and schedule an abortion for ten days from now. Now, Im regretting every single day of my life. How first and my first. Im only 21 and Im not financially free. Since I found out I was pregnant my life has been a living hell my husband immediately voiced we couldnt handle this right now, and though I was emotional about it at first, I knew he was right. ? I move into the mini-counseling session with your dad, and we are firm on our decision. And wham, I unexpectedly end up pregnant, at 41. I have been battling with the decision for some time now, had an appointment yesterday and didnt go because the voices of those who tell me I need to have the courage to keep the baby keep ringing in my head and those that guilt trip me on the decision of abortion and how wrong it is. Help us continue to provide this imperative service. I just found out Im pregnant after splitting with my partner and having already gone through 2 miscarriages. I know I made the right decision, but seeing him with his kids now breaks my heart bc he didnt want the one with me right now. From the moment on, he has told me to get an abortion, that its not the time. i struggle deeply with wanting to try again. In a letter shared in advance with the Guardian and sent on . I know Im going to love him when he is here but in the time being I am just purely struggling. Did you spell check your submission? My boyfriend and I are not financially stable to raise a child right now. She told me he has a live in girlfriend for 6 years and the girl has a 10 year old son that is not his but he helped raise. I know I would feel his kicks by now. I had been taking pregnancy tests every cycle for the past six months just to have peace of mind. All the best xxxx, Hi Owami, your message speaks to me because I was completely alone too. A week before the abortion he changed his mind and got attached to the baby. Reading this story and the comments gave me some of the comfort I needed. I n 1967, when Governor Ronald Reagan made California the third state in the union to liberalize its abortion laws, his hesitancy about doing so was clear from the start . I want to keep the baby but then i feel like maybe i should get an abortion and give myself this chance to truly start over and fresh and cut ties with him other than coparenting. Im 16 and I knew there was no way I could support a child. Praying for you! Abortions do not occur in this time period, so the phrase is contradictory. In her 2021 memoir, Teresa Leet shares her experiences in both having an abortion and placing her baby for adoption.While the abortion caused her years of emotional trauma, she has no regrets about choosing adoption.. A lack of knowledge about abortion. You will be in my thoughts and in my heart. A woman claiming to be pregnant has written an open letter to the "Little Thing" she'll never meet. Every night I went to bed, I cried. I just wanted to say thank you for writing this. We cant afford this baby. Have you done it? Last Wednesday we went for the abortion and it has been the hardest week physically and mentally for me. We want to expand our family but we werent expecting to do it so soon. Helton-Haynes, a nurse by training, said in a phone interview the 2019 law was intended to protect both the mother and the baby. It's just cruel." I dont feel like he was there for me as he should. I always wanted to be a mum I adore children but back then I couldnt keep it . As you can imagine, childhood and progression through young adulthood is very hard for foster children because most of our supports disappear once we turn 18 or so and are no longer eligible for the child welfare systems services. I am going through the same exact thing you are. I hope my 2nd child knows I love him or her. Thats when I called him and told him he needed to come home, that I wasnt mad at him anymore for all the horrible things he had recently done, and that we needed to talk. Been with him for 5 yrs & hes still married to his first wife and they both share an 8yr old she wont let him see her since she turned 4yrs old but cries about her expressing how much he misses his babygirl. I really didn't want to die. Now Im thinking an abortion is my only option, I kicked him out last night. There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. Its been 7 years since my abortion, and I miss her. Best of luck xx, I had an abortion when I was too young to provide a child with the life it deserved. Im the same, my partner cant understand why it still or ever did sadden me, he says it was too early no heartbeat, for that reason he does not feel what I feel, I cry alone, still. How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. I even Bought girl stuff.. in the end I told myself he was right. Im not mad at you anymore. She made the choice within a day, and now she is so upset and emotional and traumatised. So please mommy, don't let me down. Don't listen to the voices saying it'll be easier when I'm gone. My advice to you would be to remember that at the end of the day, and your life, you have to be able to live with yourself, so forget about what your partner wants and do what is right for you. And try my hardest at everything I do. You were there, so was my existence. Im 22 and I recently went through my 2nd abortion. I know God and His angels will help. There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. My arms ache for you. I really dont! He even started pulling out old toys and other items from when his own children were young. I feel I would regret it everyday for the rest of my life. I got into a relationship with the man I grew up with and within 8 months I became pregnant with our first child. Get the Poem of the Day delivered right to your phone! I think about you so often and wish so badly I could turn back time. (Sense my sarcasm, little one.) That, and I literally broke up with him two days prior. My grief has been unbearable the past 5 days since I had the abortion. At first, he was kind of a jerk, but eventually conceded to drive two hours back to San Francisco even though I had just sent him away that morning. My husband does not want another child. Unfortunately my health started to take a turn for the worse. Because o hate that its a decision. That exact day I started bleeding I went to the ER and they said I might miscarry again I told him and he is convinced I am going to lose the baby. Same with me 7 years. Im 9 weeks, and he pretends like it does not exist. Im currently in the exact situation. In a letter published at The Public Discourse, leaders of the American College of Pediatricians, American Association of Pro-Life Obstetricians and Gynecologists and other medical groups explained their support of the Born Alive Abortion Survivors Protection Act. I dont want to get in trouble I just dont know what to think anymore. I pull out a second test with two pink lines, that I took while on the phone with my sister this time in the apartment, this time repeating different expletives. If you can handle a child, have it. This brought me to tears. Maybe you feel deep regret, maybe it was a confusing time, maybe you didn't care at all. There might be days when I'm a bit naughty Must be awful. Wishing all loving thoughts to you. Thank you for posting and giving me hope that I will find peace. It hurt because I was all alone in it,the thought of it break my heart into million pieces Ive prayed to God to forgive me but still I cant get over it. I was very sad.! Your state requires that one of your parents be told of your decision 48 hours before your abortion. Sophie R. Pregnancy Poems A young woman writes an open letter to the child she is about to abort and posts it online.. How you still suffer over the very thought of it. We had to open up the conversation we thought was closed and re-examine our marriage and family. We have only been together 8 months though. Im broken over this. The dad and I had talked about having another child after 3.5 yrs. I was shocked. I am sad because I already have a connection with the child in my belly and I cry everyday thinking about the fact that I wont be able to hold him or her or see their face. We started trying, but didnt expect it to come so soon. I saw a tarot reader 2 years ago and they brought him up and told me he forgave me and understood but I will never forgive myself. I love this story. Ive imagined names and what he would look like. God bless you. You have a child. But in reality I know who the dad was because of what had happened on the night we spent together but it did not help my decision as I felt so ashamed. Were you touched by this poem? According to The Mirror, a mother explained how she would be relieved if her third child died in their sleep because she was too afraid to get an abortion when she was pregnant as the pregnancy . And the joy of playing with my friends. I feel like the biggest failure in the world. Would you call that dad-approved? A boy or a girl? Youre still with me, and Im grateful for that too. My apt is tomo And I dont want to go. This moved me. Jocelyn, I cant thank you enough for sharing your story. American liberals are debating the merits of "after birth abortion." On 29 July 2015, the unreliable web site Conservative Post published an article titled "Liberals Debate . All stories are moderated before being published. Im up and down about it all. I have seen God cry when rocking little babies in His big loving arms. Ang, your situation is same as mine. Couldnt take my meds or prenatals because the baby threw up everything. Xxx, We are all such incredible and compassionate women. March 8, 2014 at 4:36 pm. If you know you arent ready for this trust yourself. Cant help thinking its meant to be when I got pregnant again. It was my first pregnancy, my husband is deployed, and I just happened to be going through this process physically alone (minus a couple friends there for support). God has forgiven you and you should try and forgive yourself. Im sending love your way, dear one. Ive been employed in my feild for the past 4 years (student hires are highly sought in this feild). Be strong for me hold on to me She returns and hands me an envelope. Thank you for sharing. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you. Even if you have others support around you, it can so easily feel like youre going through it alone. I always believed that I will meet my angel one day. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation We named you to help us grieve for you By anonymous on 19/11/2013 surgical abortion abortion 18 weeks Firstly I need to tell you that me & your daddy have decided to name you. I feel so empty and outright irresponsible. Yes, Im still pregnant. I got pregnant from one night with a guy that I went on a few dates with. I know what I will do and why I feel it is the best choice I can make, but I will never forget this little tiny creature that has visited me and wanted so much to be my family, as I so wanted to be hers/his. I would never say that Im over it and my biggest regret is not being careful enough to avoid getting pregnant in the first place. Dear Reverend (name), It is not without much time and thought that I have decided to address myself to you. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you.. Whenever you talk about her baby, use the pronouns "he" or "she.". My heart tells me it wa a girl. This brings me to a previous pregnancy right before this in which I unfortunately miscarried. Emotionally I suffered very badly for the first 2 weeks after the abortion (even to the point of being suicidal at times which is massively out of character for me) I was warned that pregnacy hormones around this time are at their strongest and to expect extreme moods. I just wanted to say thank-you for sharing your story. Long story short Im 26 now, engaged to my partner for the last 5 years. Always imagine what he or she will look like. Keep the faith, you are not alone . Now I m just waiting for my appointment but I feel so shit , down and gonna cry all the time. Im confused and feel horribly alone. I am currently 5 months pregnant with my child. I made the decision to get an abortion at 8weeks. I was a late-in-life baby, the fourth child born when my mom was 42 in 1959. I wish I would have told him to have a nice life. She is a very strong woman but this is killing her slowly and I dont know how to help. I've got twice the appetite and half the energy. My best friend just found out she is pregnant a few days ago and she is only 19. My heart is so crushed. I feel like you put my experience and feelings into words. I can identify , however the thought of another pregnancy scared me.. so I never wanted another child.. after this..This was 28 years later, I am in the same boat currently. I wasnt going to tell him until I was so far along I could not abort but that sounds crazy. nothing was ever the same between us. I m a thai women but I moved to England to live with my husband , he is 34 years old and weve been together nearly 3 years. All other content on this website is Copyright 2006-2023 FFP Inc. All rights reserved. As a pro-life advocate, I've written and submitted many articles pertaining to abortion to our local newspaper. Hes verbally abusive, Ive spent all my money on him, no savings, lots of debt he makes the money I just make very little. Colorado. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. It hurts the relationship with my husband, and we are about to be separated as we cannot communicate anymore. I have searching for someone going through what Im going through but I have yet to find it. I am in the middle of mine as I type this. These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. My boyfriend told me to abort mine and I dumped him and made that decision on my own. He comes at all times of the day we talk all day we talk on the phone all the time I would have never thought. We don't need to live in a big fancy house, Im 9 weeks pregnant. I love this man but i dont want a baby now and i feel the worst human being in this world for thinking that way. I know a lot of people do this to help them grieve for their unborn babies. Im 28 now and I dont see having a kids in the future maybe because I cant forgive myself with what Ive done. Dimplez, The Gift Of Life By Constant regret and pain . What if I still had no money, no stable place to live? I look for my child for twenty years but I was never able to get pregnant again . But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? How do I pick them? There was also this paranoia about who the dad was. However, reading this, even though it did make me cry, also made me realize I could look at this moment as something to grow from and not just bury it away as a bad memory. I told my cousin and she said that his name sounded familiar and asked around. She had a support network that would have helped and supported her but being very self sufficient wodnt allow her to acknowledge at the time. I wish I could talk to someone who gets it so much :,( also cate I hope your ok and you and your husband sorted things out. Someone please talk and guide me into a direction. Like something to be dealt with, a burden that was his cross to bear. Sending love to all of you going through this situation . I really commend you Shawn. I know that deep down hes right but its tearing me apart. But I do not regret it. Im going to mourn the abortion. Im 23 years old. I have to go through a second one and I dont know what to do. The baby daddy is crying too because we have a lot to achieve in life and this isnt what we expected. Hi. I never talked to people about it after. We argued and I prayed on it. One day you will be an amazing mum, dont doubt that! Starving, I told him. He would have been 7 and his name was Dyno. I want the baby, and he says not yet. Im stressed and feel so alone. but something I think people needed to read. I told him to not come at all and I would be fine. Those options may be easier, less expensive, and more in reach than you think. According to Florida's Reducing Fetal and Infant Mortality law, which was implemented last July, abortions are prohibited after 15 weeks of gestation, with a few exceptions, including one that. Thank you so much for this. I have three healthy children 21,17 and 13 from a previous marriage. Im always hunted by guilt almost everyday, same as you Im also working in Nursery school, so I always see kids that reminds of my poor one. So at 26 years old, on April 10th, 2015, just as I had for months prior, I took a pregnancy test because I was eight days late. Regardless of the decision you make its a life long one so be very sure. The abortion debate has been going on for ages. Every day I feel like a monster. Yes, Im still pregnant. We use protection and still Ive ended up pregnant once more. Hi Mikal, I understand how torn you feel. Luckily I was able to talk to my partner who was incredibly supportive but there were so many reasons for this not being the right time for us. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. I now have learnt something new about myself i will absolutely love to be a mother one day. Your baby. Family assumes that I just dont want to have them, when in reality, now, is that no one will have one with me. It could take several hours for the baby to die, and sometimes the baby didn't die at all and was born . You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. I cant be a single baby mama, with two baby daddies. Im booked in for abortion on Thursday, Im already a single mum to two kids. Im giving up the pregnancy to focus on my toddler & also to avoid a life of suffering for the new baby You know in your heart what the right decision is. Davis, a mother of three, is fundraising online to cover the cost of traveling out of state to get an abortion. Im lost and have a follow up appointment in 2 weeks to test my hcg levels by that time is will be 8 weeks almost 9. I have been looking for support from this side. I am thinking of you xx. Weve been married about 10 years and I have children from my previous marriage that she loves as well but cant help being jealous of. I wanted to be your everything. And it bothers me that my husbands doesnt realize the pain Im going through. He told me to decide between him and the baby and he would leave. Xx. And so, we eat our burritos, filling ourselves with reality and carne asada. Sending love your way. Anyway, Im still mourning and will never forget till the day I die. STOP! We have been having the same unprotected sex as we were while still together. I am not in a relationship with the indivdual that I am pregnant with and nor do I want to be as it is a toxic relationship. If you do not live with your parents, but you live with a grandparent, or an adult aunt or uncle, the adult relative you live with may be told in place of your parents. She gave her baby girl up for adoption, and now that baby is an adult. I havent spoken to my parents yet. My name is also Ashley and im also at the 10 year mark. Oh, Honey. Chapter Headings: I can hear your voice Because I wanted abortion, I took my first baby's life. I just wish I presented her with an easy choice. The law has no exception to allow an abortion to save the life of . "Everything about a later termination is already so incredibly difficult even just picking up the phone to make the appointment. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. The one person I need in my corner is not the there and I dont know if I can do this all over again at my age. I am so sorry you had to go through this. I do wish I wouldve had more support during this time, mainly because my husband shut down due to his circumstances, but it has gone to show me just how strong I am and how much stronger I can be. I then found out he was cheating on me big time it was scary my first thought was omg I cant have this monsters baby but I still carried on with the pregnancy a little unsure but over time he got more abusive, still treating me badly he started saying get rid of the baby idc . We sit in silence for a little while, then I ask him to sit next to me, and he does, all the while looking surprised. I felt you crying when you went to the doctor. I read this the night before my appointment for my abortion. Letter to My Child - Abortion Memorial What is the Abortion Memorial? He just doesnt want another child, but what about me & what I want? My boy ( yes, For some crazy reason at that time, I wanted to find out the sex of the baby through the blood test they do to check chromosomes and it was a boy) would be 7 years old. He met my dad. Everyone at work keeps getting pregnant and every time I hurt. I agree about age being just a number but my husband is 50 and not interested in doing this again. is! God will see you through. When your raised in foster care it is because there is virtually no one else willing or able to care for you as a child. People will yawn when they are bored of you. I miss my baby every day. Im not pregnant. I went into the first floor bathroom and peed on that little white-tipped stick.

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